Pathetic Me

Well... Hi buddy. I am sorry for leaving you for two years...

In line with the title. I'm just pathetic!

We all know that two years have passed. So, you certainly miss the most important part of my life, right? Okay, just forget about the pathetic part. Now let's jump to the surprising thing...

IMMA COLLEGE STUDENT BRAAAW!!! 

Dude! I totally couldn't believe it! Don't you know that I had always wondered when and where I would be after graduating from senior high school!? How'd it feel to be a college students, who left their house, their beloved family, then rent a place to live!? How'd it feel to adapt to the new environment, to manage yourself alone, TO LEAVE YOUR COMFORT ZONE!? I've wondered this kind of thing when I was in primary school. See, how long I was waiting to feel this kind of thing...

Well... I..am going to continue this post later! Ahahahaha. Dude, you want to know before-and-after story entering the college don't you.

But I have to state this clearly. I'm gonna rebuild myself, from the start. Even I change my nickname here haha!

So, new life, new me!

Goodbye Pathetic Me!

P.S : Ignore my previous posts. I know the colour is disturbing and the posts are freaks so the best way is to ignore. Thanks.

OMG DO WE STILL HAVE LEISURE TIME

Hey pal!
You are happy right now, aren't you? Yeah! That's because of me! Happy to meet me again in this new post! #kicked #dodge #chase #run #forget it

Today...is still Saturday. Of course! #sweatdrop And yeah, coz of your sincere prayer, my mom was getting better. THANK YOU! And she asked me where I would like to go. Actually I was kinda confused, why? I'm in final exam. Mostly parents would not allow their children to go or play. Just for studying, and getting stressed out. Well that's just my own definition.

Something that makes me confused was, my mom was like kinda force me to go out! Was I expelled? Of course not! I'm the most obedient child here! #fake So yeah... Mom just wanted me to have a relax time. But actually I'm not stress. Well it's okay as long as my mom pay me lol #$.$

Honestly I wanted to go to Ciputra Mall, but then I thought further... Uhm, whatever as it's a mall/bookstore. So I asked Mom what place she wanted to go. She told me, "This is your time, it's up to you, Manda." I thought like Jimmy Neutron... I just wanna go to a place that is not so far so my parents would not have any difficulties for driving me. I choose Pekanbaru Mall. My mom was kinda excited coz she wanted to go to the Lejelbaaaahhh...

And, I want to write more but... Too lazy, too sleepy...

Okay, Manda! Keep smiling keep shining! (?)

-Amanda, with marsupial eyes

Saturday! I Can't Believe It!

Today is Saturday!

I just can't believe, I thought it's Wednesday or maybe Thursday or blahblah! Maybe my senility(?) was due to the exam started at Wednesday and the Thursday was a holiday! Then the Friday and Saturday, were tests day. It felt so fast if tomorrow is Sunday, red date. I wonder what I would do today... Mom is sick, guess I can't go anywhere. So let's hope for my Mom's health!

Okay so I'll start my journal for today.
The subjects of the exam are Religion and Sociology. Sociology. Sausage-ology. I'm hungry... Forget it. Yeah, that SAUSAGEology was, was sooo a very dubious! Okay, maybe it's easy IF your heart knows the best of the good things. It's about social dude, there's NO FACT thing. That's the problem of this sausage subject. You must use your conscience... You must be an angel... You must be a saint...

And it's not me.

Doesn't mean that I'm an evil, ok!
I'm a... sometimes-good-sometimes-bad girl. But for people who think that I'm a good girl, thank you! Although they must be no one lol.

Forget the-angel-evil thingy.

So, after the exam of hell end -only for today-, I and my bestfriend, Arthur's fake girlfriend Alisya, have made a promise -actually I only accompanied her- to her Boyfriend, Mr. PergiJauh. They wanted to talk about something, about love, l.o.v.e, lope lope lope~

Well nope,
they wanted to talk about...
Nah, I don't know.
I forgot to eavesdrop.
Then, then...

That Mr. PergiJauh gave her a present!
For their anniversary for 2 months relationship!

Pinky present neatly wrapped! I... I was so moved and about to cry. (?) I saw that her boyfriend kinda trembled? Who cares! At least I saw a free romantic movie! And yea, things went well -maybe- and...

I don't know what your decision is about your relationship with him now, Als!

I just hope what the best for your love-life. ;)
Trust your heart! :D

-Amanda, with great support

Lyric

Kuroshitsuji's 2nd Ending!
Miss yah Sebastian & Ciel...

Lacrimosa

Vocals: Kalafina
Lyrics: Kajiura Yuki
Composition: Kajiura Yuki
Arrangement: Kajiura Yuki

Kurayami no naka de mutsumiau
Zetsubou to mirai o
Kanashimi o abaku tsukiakari
Tsumetaku terashiteta

The moonlight, which exposes sadness
Coldly illuminated
Despair and the future
That are friendly with each other within the darkness

Kimi no kureta himitsu o shirube ni
Aoi yoru no shizukesa o yuku

Turning the secret that you gave me into a sign
I go through the silence of the pale night

Lacrimosa
Tooku kudakete kieta
Mabushii sekai o mou ichido aishitai
Hitomi no naka ni yume o kakushite
Yogoreta kokoro ni
Namida ga ochite kuru made

Lacrimosa
Once more, I want to love the glaringly bright world
That shattered in the distance and vanished
Hide your dream in your eyes
Until tears come falling
Onto your sullied heart

Maboroshi no basha wa yami o wake
Hikari no aru hou e
Yume to iu wana ga boku-tachi o
Homura e izanau

The phantom carriage parts the darkness
And goes toward where the light is
The trap known as dreams
Lures us toward the flames

Sora no ue no mujihi na kamigami ni wa
Donna sakebi mo todoki wa shinai
Lacrimosa…

No shout of any sort will reach
The merciless gods above the sky
Lacrimosa…

Bokura wa moesakaru takigi to nari
Itsuka sono sora o yakitsukusou

We’ll be the blazing firewood
And seem to burn away the sky someday

Lacrimosa
Koko ni umarete ochita
Chinureta sekai o osorezu ni aishitai
Yurusareru yori yurushi shinjite
Yogoreta chijou de
Namida no hibi o kazoete

Lacrimosa
I want to fearlessly love the blood-soaked world
That I was born in
Rather than being forgiven, forgive and believe in me
Count the number of lachrymose days
On the sullied earth

Ganbatte ne!

A letter for you!

Pekanbaru, 01/06/2011

"You"

You-Know-Who
He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named
*Lord Voldemort?*

I know...
I know!
I just know
You're not gone
You can't be gone, no

Come on, come on, don't leave me like this
I thought I had you figured out
Something's gone terribly wrong
Won't finish what you started

-sings Haunted by Taylor Swift-

#punched

Just kidding! Well I just want to say... Errr...
I... Lo...
.
.
.
.
.
.
I'm Lord

#double punched#

Sebastian: Yes, my lord #stray
Ciel: Who!? I'm the only one your lord! You're cheating on me... #cries

#ignores

Okay! Just cheer up!
I know you can!
And I know you--we can if we do something seriously!
And, and, and, I know you're serious about everything! (?)

Ganbatte ne!
Boku wa...itsumo anata no tame ni inoru!
Watashi wa anata no kongo o matte iru!
#Uchikina

-Amanda, sick of something

I Beg You

I BEG YOU.
PLEASE IGNORE MY PREVIOUS ENTRIES.
THAT'S WHEN I WAS A KID!

. . .

JUST IGNORE THEM, THANKS!
It's embarassing! God! I'm ashamed!

-Amanda, with puppy eyes

Hello World!

I'm baaack!
Copying wordpress' slogan!
No, actually I'm not back.
I'm lazy to write blog. But today I'm just bored.
Wanna inform you about my condition. You miss me, don't you?
You must be miss me!
YOU MUST BE
Lol
So yeah, you can see, the last post was

Friday, February 19, 2010

And it's about UN, dude!
UJIAN NASIONAL! NATIONAL EXAM!
Sick...
It's over a year ago!
Okay, that's all.
I'll write new entries...sometime.